Wednesday, January 23, 2013

On being a grandparent......

Having grandchildren is such an amazing experience. Like having a child, there is nothing that prepares you for the experiences and feelings that engulf your life once they're here.  I am blessed to have three awesome grandchildren and every day they occupy my mind.

I constantly marvel at how fast they're growing........how easily they learn new things.........at their enthusiasm to try new experiences.........and then I worry about all the things that could possibly happen to them.  Not that I'm neurotic about it, I just worry.

One of biggest issues I struggle with is sharing them with everyone else in the world that loves them too!  Now that they're old enough to begin understanding their own feelings, likes and dislikes, they often share things about the other grandparents.  As I listen to them, sometimes I'm smiling inside.....sometimes I'm jealous.....and sometimes I'm angry.  I am becoming the quintessential diplomat as they share those things, because I've realized, to color their thinking with my own preferences and bias would not be fair to them.  These are intelligent little kids, who as they mature will make their own evaluations of people and experiences.  It's just hard not to want to protect them from everything and everyone.  Yet, just like I had to learn to "let go" of my own daughters, I have to tenderly hold my grandchildren realizing I'm just one of many who love and care for them.

To be honest......I have my selfish moments..........I have my egotistical moments........and probably on the full spectrum of feelings I'm a little narcissistic when it comes to my children and grandchildren wanting them to love me the most.  What I'm learning to do is love the moments I have with each of them.......cherish the hugs and kisses.......knowing that God has a plan for their life, and I'm just one little cog in the wheel of life that propels them forward..........still........